On Trying To Be Good

In a nutshell trying to be good will only do one thing…

Make you be bad! So why is that…

Because no one can be truly good, truly pure. We are not built that way. And we know this inside, but we choose not to acknowledge it. Because that is what we are thought by the church, by our fathers and mothers…

‘’You must be good, or God will punish you’’

This statement has resounded in my head for a long time. And whenever I did something ‘’wrong’’. I expected to be punished, even though I didn’t want it.

So, I got the punishment. It happened like clockwork (what you expect and focus on you get). And that made me want to be even more a good person. And the cycle repeats and takes you down the rabbit hole farther and farther.

You will always be good and bad. You cannot have one without the other. Like you cannot have a coin without two faces or black without white. They come together. They are inseparable.

It’s true some people err toward one side or the other. And that is what we call good and bad people. But they are never intrinsically bad or good. Maybe that’s why we love Game of Thrones. Because you can relate to the villains as much as the heroes. Each one of them show they can be good and bad and err more toward one side in the end.

So, you need to stop stressing about trying to be good. About doing God’s will. And just accept it. Embrace your dark side and love it. Because it’s there to serve you in difficult situations. Read that again…

‘’It is there to serve you’’.